January of 2019 I got out of rehab and have been clean ever since. By March I could no longer live in my old neighborhood simply out of embarrassment and humiliation. I do remember much of my behavior while addicted but shamefully reminded about it by friends and family. For almost 2 years as I abused drugs I also brought shame on family. As soon as I got out of rehab I began seeing many of the guys I had sex with. My reputation was destroyed as I heard stories of things I had either forgotten or blocked out of my mind. I’m 27 now and not only known as a whore but a lot worse. I remember being so dependent on the drugs that just to get a fix I gave guys hand jobs right in a bar I used to hang out in. I only have a slight memory of the two times I was involved in a gang bang but have been reminded of it many times. I even had several guys tell me what a good blow job I was and can’t begin to remember how many guys I had sex with. I don’t even visit my parents anymore and only see them and my sister when they come to see me. I am clean now and made my mind up to stay that way. I have been dating a guy since last June who is just great. I can never tell him about my past but am afraid if our relationship gets serious he would want to know more about my home town. I’m in a different state but still afraid to ever go back home.